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Click if you love me DAMNIT!
( .piktures. )
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| Ello Mate! |
[18 Jun 2004|11:33am] |
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Ok so this is the low down..kinda...because I am too damn lazy to write everything down. So try to get it...sorta. Ya heard?
Oke..Welp. We are trying to get me emancipated. Not to be on my own. Or by myself...but so I can live with my sisters without my mom having any type of say in what happens to me.
-Rewind a week or so- My mom has been getting poopy as of late. So I gave her the benefit of the doubt and tryed to see if she would take care of herself. Obviously she didn't. She hid her pills and shit so w/e. I'm done with that bull. I'm going to live out where I don't need to worry about dumb shit 24/7. It's guna be hard with court and stuff. But Matt and others live out here.
-back to now- Now I am just waiting to see wtf is going on. Its kinda neat. Nothing big really. Just chillaxin' with peoples. Matt, my neice, Ang, Ry, Dan, Kez, Etc. Good people let me tell you. So today is DDRing with Kez and Mark. It'll be fun. Haven't played in forever. Then tomarrow is KT's graduation par-tay o doomage. That promises to be kick ass. Especially with my awesome idea to make a card out of silver glitter...duct tape...and safety pins. Savvy?
OI!
Welp I'm out this bitch. Late!
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[07 Jun 2004|12:11am] |
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and I'm off to New Lenox. Ta lovers! <33
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[06 Jun 2004|01:33am] |
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Thanx Reject_of_Life for me new icon. It rawks...and so do you! :D
This is me newest tweeked ( pictures )...Boy do I miss me hair..
Late! <33
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| Take me out... |
[06 Jun 2004|12:01am] |
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So if you're lonely
You know I'm here waiting for you
I'm just a cross-hair
I'm just a shot away from you
And if you leave here
You leave me broken, shattered I lie
I'm just a cross-hair
I'm just a shot, then we can die
Aaahhh....
I know I won't be leaving here...
w!th you
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Argh...Holy fucking shit. I really wana know whats going to happen with my life in the end. That would be nice, I really am feeling this Reno 911 marathon tho. Tis nice. But my mom is sitting laugh histaricly....very weird. Because she was just yelling. Today she called me fat, very funny because shes 5'3 160 lbs. and I'm 5'4 120...no wonder my self esteem is terrible.
Today was interesting, hung out with Collen, Joey, Kendylle, Jessica, Julian, Matt, and some mexican dude. It was ok...me Coll and Joey didn't really talk to the rest of the group tho. Atleast we rented Donnie Darko, I intruduced that to them. Too bad its more main stream now tho...Ohh well...whatcha guna do. Then we watched some other movie ..it sucked. Me Coll and Joey all ate a crap load of stuff, we all downed like 2 bowls of chips, a thing of popcorn and i had a hot dog and a hamburger. lol. Im a fatass. Then we went swimming and I only stayed in for like 2 minutes...Im not fond of swimming, i just had my shirt on top of my bathing suit. I hate bathing suits..I feel neked and like my ugly crap is hanging out. -shrugs- Ahh I wish I had enough self esteem to wear a bathing suit then I wouldnt be so pastey...TOO BAD MATT! lol Im not guna wear one...
Im done...Late.
( .Some tests. )
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[05 Jun 2004|12:26am] |
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Dear Biskut,
Today kicked ass. I love u so much and your beauty inside and out has no words to describe it. Your so awesome and I really dig your new hair. I admit on Wednesday when I saw you with it it took me awhile to adjust, but it totaly suits you. The time we had together was totally what we needed and you're by far the best thing ever to have enter my life. Thank you for being here for me. <3
XoXo
Ashy
P.S.
When you drove by and yelled "aye aye aye" that was the funniest thing to happen to me in a while. xD
Wow...I'm Emo. >.< XDXD
( .Found this in Potatoes El-Jay. ) Take a gander yo!
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[04 Jun 2004|01:00am] |
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I love my Matt. He makes me feel so grand. He makes me feel like I'm the luckiest girl in the world. The most beautiful, and no matter what sh*t is going to go down. (or not) In the future. I have faith in us. I love him so much and I never wana be without him. <33
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[03 Jun 2004|10:18pm] |
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Welp...I have a lot of stuff to think about. But...I might be moving in with me sis. I doubt it, but theres a possibility.
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[02 Jun 2004|11:49pm] |
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ew....I hate myself. I really do. Im such a stupid butt faced loser. And I fu*k everything up. I didn't have to peirce my ear. I'm just stupid. That's all. Fu*k it. I'm done. ....Im just a dumbas. -hits face-
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[02 Jun 2004|12:19am] |
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I GET TO SEE MATT TOMARROW!!!!!!
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[28 May 2004|11:30pm] |
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I FUCKING LOVE YOU!
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[15 May 2004|10:30pm] |
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Before you read this...kno that it took us a long ass time to plan this "surprise" going away party for Mr. Ken because we are all fucking dumbasses. XD
Ok....so today after waiting all morning and early afternoon I ended up going to Morgans. Then me and Morgan called up Matt to see where he lived. I got the directions mixed up and ended up by the wrong school. Ryan, Matt, Matt, and Pat were there. We all sat around and waited inside Matts room while watching the boys play with a nude lady shocker lighter for about an hour while me and Morgan were dying from Sneezy doom. Pat finally called up Ken to see what the hell was going on and he said he didn't feel like going. So being being stupid we had Matt call him back and blow the surprise and tell him to get the fuck over. So while we waited for him they boys tried to start up a fire. Them being as mentally hanidcapt as they are they didn't do shit except do everything wrong. Their idea of strating a bon fire was putting up wet logs and covering them with lighter fluid while striking them with matches. (dumbasses XD) so me and Morgan finally came back after laughing at their supidity and started up a better fire. In the midst of all of the chaos Ken waltses in and was like...wtf you guys are retarded and helped us. lol. so we all get the fire started better. we being me morgan ken and matt.
After that came the cooking of the food this is a funny part because of how stupid they are. They put these...I can't even explain it...just like these ghetto hangy thingys to put the burgers on....it was SO bad...but me and Morgan just stabbed out penises and roasted em! XD but yea, so Ken said screw that and they all wrapped the burgers in tin foil and threw em in the fire.
That went on for awhile then the guys took out the Samerai swords and butterfly knives and machettis. I had an axe and was throwing it in the ground trying to do it like Ken but I didn't do so well...ANYWHo yea so Ryan attacked Matt's G-Ma's bush with a machetti...lol. Not good cause now its half a bush..lol. But yea...that when on..
Then Ken strated to like rape Morgan...twas amusing. lol. That kid is so randy its sad...he needs a whore..too bad "Tina" couldn't make it. haha. So then it was just us being asses and everyone being stupid randy kids and just chacing each other and kicking Ken in the nads.
Then we made more burgers...then we burned everything...which ended up with them having to want to get ride of all the bottle so they can pop so i had to drink nearly more then half a 2 leader of Rot Beer...I kno Root Beer is the God of all soft drinks by far. But I mean...yea a lot is bad on the tum-tum. So I did that...Yes....I am awesome. XD ...I am SOOOO manly..but I ended up vomiting in front of everyone. So much for Ken thinking I'm hott HAH! ...Yea i don't think that tarnished shit. lol. ANYWHO so yea...we burned more shit then the night ended with Matt pissing on the Bon fire and putting it out.
-Fin-
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"you're more punk, hardcore, mod, straight edge, emo, indie than me.
your hair is cooler, your pants are tighter, you have more tattoos.
you have cooler pins on your messenger bag and your favorite band is more obscure than mine. your shoes are more vintage and so is your t-shirt.
you own more black clothes than me.
i don't even own a trucker cap OR a jacket. your
glasses are thicker and blacker than mine, the plugs in your ears are bigger.
you know more people in bands and your black jelly bracelets are the envy of scenesters everywhere.
your photography is blacker and whiter, your makeoutclub profile is wittier, and you have much better soul records.
your tie is whiter, or redder, or blacker.
your scene points are d o u b l e, perhaps t r i p l e, mine.
because as we all know, that's what really matters.
in a scene where the music has taken a backseat to the haircuts, you win and i lose."
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[11 May 2004|08:01am] |
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Happy Birthday Matt! :)
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I'm so stressed I hate this. I keep going through these series of ups and downs. and the only person I can stand lately is Matt...ugh....I wana vomit.
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[07 May 2004|11:07am] |
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Ok so lately everything has been extremely tough and thought provoking. Its all been so much to deal with, even the small things. I think it's just the last of the school year hectic's that I usually get. I keep having these crazy mind blowing dreams that make me think way to hard about stuff, but thats for me to know what they're about because I only share most of em with Matt.
So I've had a ton of work piled on me, World History, Earth Science, Math, and last but not least....English. Yes that stupid effing English project from hell has arose after doing practically nothing in this class we get the mother load of b.s. a top our shoulders. Its a grand burden isn't it? Ahh so...I have gotton about two and a half...almost three pages done out of eight? I will indeed finish it tonight...with the help of Matt giving me some research he found on internet because hes nice. He helped me get my brain stimulated for the report. I just need to get a lift and I'm good. So yea, that is really stressing me out.
Drivers Ed is a bastard...I've been working me ass off and now I don't have enough teacher driving time. That pisses me off because not only do I ask him if I can drive almost everyday, but when I couldn't go because I had no ride cause of Family issues he was like well you can still get out here. It's just all b.s. and I need that lisense to get out by Matt because he busts his ass to see me and I can't get out by him. I feel so terrible that I can't but I have no way of reaching him. Ohh and just for the pure joy of having the lisense. So tomarrow I have to wake up at the wee hours of the morning to get my permit again because me mum lost it. So that shall suck.
I don't know. I just really want to see Matt.....I just wana hold him, and just see him and make him happy. But I am just so happy all our shit is taken care of. He means the world to me...he really does. The 30 miles never mattered as much as it does now, I mean I am ok with it, I just get jealous of people who see their special someone all the time. I would kill for that. But pretty soon when or if I get my lisense I'm totally going out by him a lot. But even though its a lot of gas monies it worth it.
I put in an application for HWP, my mom checked Baskin Robbins/Dunkin Doughnuts, and KFC for one for me but none. I am still going to look tomarrow when me and Morgan go to HWP for some DDR...but yea. I really need a break. -thinks of summer- ^.^ -sigh-
I'm done.
Late
P.S.
People are stupid.
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[06 May 2004|09:56pm] |
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"as life lives longer also feels softer and it feels pretty soft to me, if it takes shit to make bliss than i feel pretty blisfully, and if lifes not beautifull without the pain than id just rather never ever see beauty again"
Modest Mouse..
Thx Matt I like that quote a lot. <333
Too much shit...too much......must....hug...Matt...-dies-...
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[05 May 2004|12:52pm] |
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SHIT! Ok, so Warped Tour...BAND CAMP....AND me and Matts on YEAR is on July 27th...FUCK! So ....I CAN'T miss band camp...BUT I also can't miss Warped Tour...HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -cries-
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Note to self...theres a reason why I never eat school food..and this is it....-vomits-
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