Current mood:	lonely
Current music:	Polly

I sleep just to dream of you and awake without you there...
I feel like a fool. That people (Ari) can think they can try to lie to people to get back to me about a guy I dated for almost a year, and that could ruin what we had? How can you think you can break what me and him still have? I do admit I still love him. But thats not it. How can you try to make what we had in vain, and try to get us against each other? Making our relationship a joke? You're a stupid envious slut, and thats all I have to say.

I don't kno how to feel about Matt. It's like a lyric from that Box Car Racer song "Will you sleep tonight, or will you think of me?". But at the moment I am the one who is doing the thinking. I seem to always do, and I doubt he is. Not that it actually matters now, he clearly wants to be with "other girls". Which is fine. I just will continue to put on my happy mask, and prance about until the pain finally goes with everything else I have learned to burry. My insides are torn, I feel happy without him. But then I recall some memories and my heart falls. I hate this feeling. I really am not too fond of life at the moment. I need to be held....