Current mood:

disappointed

-looks down-
FUCK

I hate how life works. I keep having those flashbacks. Ya kno? I wish there was a musical flashback for everything you go through. He's my best friend. The person I could turn to. I feel like my insides have been raped. This feeling... is why I didn't want to date. But I did, and that's what you get. Atleast I learned my lesson. Huh?

I'm not going to write in here for a while. I just dont want to / cant do it. Fuck everything right now man. I really am too torn for this shit, it ain't right. It isn't me. I'm going to straighten myself out inside, I already feel it. I just want him. But life suCks in that way. Ohh well... shit happens.