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[07 Jan 2005|10:55pm] |
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I'm still alive. And as for the funny comments I found in my old picture posts. I laughed my ass off at them. So thank you for entertaining me at my bored state o doomage. If you are still hating me and shit keep doing it, because without hate there is no love. :D
Late cunts.
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| New hair New pics!!! |
[22 Jul 2004|05:04pm] |
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( .Yo. )
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| Sexy pikturez! |
[19 Jul 2004|08:26pm] |
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Boy do I love dressing up. xD
( .Kez 'n' Ash )
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| PICTURE JOURNAL! |
[18 Jul 2004|12:14am] |
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JERRY JERRY JERRY! |
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Ok so...instead of leaving my journal that I've had forever, I came up with a grand idear. You know how people have picture journals? Well this shall be my picture journal for now on. ....Well....-shrugs- I'm excited about it. XD
( .MORE PIKTUREZ. )
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| Thought I'd rather leave on a more light hearted note... |
[15 Jul 2004|04:44pm] |
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New Journal. Don't Hate.
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| JTHM |
[13 Jul 2004|02:14am] |
Sometimes...
You can cry until there is nothing wet in you. You can scream and curse until your throat rebels and ruptures. You can pray all you want, to whatever god you think will listen and, still, it makes NO difference. It goes on with no sign as to when it might release you. And you never know that if it ever did relent.
It would not be because it cared.....
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| That crazy mofo. Shes CRAZZAAAAAAAAAY! |
[13 Jul 2004|02:11am] |
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-laughs-.... insane people rawk...just because they entertain me when I need it. -sigh- ohh man...matt you better hope shes lying. nuff said.
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| CLEARITY! |
[13 Jul 2004|12:47am] |
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Talked to Tali. Things are grand in that department. We covered a lot. He's a coo person for talking to me. Go team Tali-Face.
Talked to Ari. Things are "cool" to say the least.
Saw Matt. Welp ...Saw Matt. -shrugs- XD
With Ashley, she rawks my world. YO!
Peace.
P.S. Fuck guys, and their peni. (not literally that would abolish the whole idea, heh) I don't need guys. Nor does anyone else, if you think you do, you just like him, you NEED to depend on yourself, if you don't it's sad. LOVE YOURSELF MORE THEN ANYTHING. He will turn into a mean face eventually..even for a few days.....they're menstrual.. END!
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[10 Jul 2004|01:23am] |
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-sings-
I hate myself ...OOOO I DOOO!!!.
I am dumb.
I am dumb.
I am dumb.
I am dumb.
I am dumb.
I am dumb.
I am dumb.
I am dumb.
PLEASE SHOOT MEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| I sleep just to dream of you and awake without you there... |
[09 Jul 2004|01:35am] |
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I feel like a fool. That people (Ari) can think they can try to lie to people to get back to me about a guy I dated for almost a year, and that could ruin what we had? How can you think you can break what me and him still have? I do admit I still love him. But thats not it. How can you try to make what we had in vain, and try to get us against each other? Making our relationship a joke? You're a stupid envious slut, and thats all I have to say.
I don't kno how to feel about Matt. It's like a lyric from that Box Car Racer song "Will you sleep tonight, or will you think of me?". But at the moment I am the one who is doing the thinking. I seem to always do, and I doubt he is. Not that it actually matters now, he clearly wants to be with "other girls". Which is fine. I just will continue to put on my happy mask, and prance about until the pain finally goes with everything else I have learned to burry. My insides are torn, I feel happy without him. But then I recall some memories and my heart falls. I hate this feeling. I really am not too fond of life at the moment. I need to be held....
Am I just never good enough?
Why should I try?
Love is pain.
I just need to remember that next time.
FUCK relationships.
I'm through with them.
I'm just never good enough.
Fuck me!!
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| Nirvana rawks |
[08 Jul 2004|05:05pm] |
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Sappy -Nirvana
And if you save yourself
You will make him happy
He'll keep you in a jar
And you'll think you're happy
He'll give you breathing holes
And you'll think you're happy
He'll cover you with grass
And you'll think you're happy now
You're really in a laundry room
You're really in a laundry room
The clue just came to you, oh
And if you cut yourself
You will think you're happy
He'll keep you in a jar
Then you'll make him happy
He'll give you breathing holes
Then you'll think you're happy
He'll cover you with grass
Then you'll think you're happy now
You're really in a laundry room
You're really in a laundry room
The clue that came to you, oh
You're really in a laundry room
You're really in a laundry room
The clue that came to you, oh
And if you fool yourself
You will make him happy
He'll keep you in a jar
Then you'll think you're happy
He'll give you breathing holes
Then you will seem happy
You'll wallow in his shit
Then you'll think you're happy now
You're really in a laundry room
You're really in a laundry room
You're really in a laundry room
The clue that came to you, oh
In my eyes, I'm not lazy
In my face, It's not over
In your room, I'm not older
In your eyes, I'm not worth it
Gimme back my alcohol (x7)
I LOOOOVE these songs. XD
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| gay Porn....morgan style yo! |
[08 Jul 2004|02:06pm] |
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Ok so Sorry Ashley Demma!!! I don't have internet at my sisters house at the moment we're going to get it pretty soon. Then me u and Dan can all hang out. Or else I'll just give you a ring when I get back to Jen's because I'm at Morgans. XD.
Ok So 4th of July sucked kinda. Cept for Ash, Ryan, Dan, and Ang. They rawk. Ari is a stupid slut who just made herself look more like a slut and stupid which is pretty hard to acheive. But it's coo. She'll get AID's eventually. -shrugs-
I have my lip peirced. Shows what being extremely pissed and insane and help you do. ...and help you be....which is hot. (Yea....Morgans my hump buddy)Yea have along with my blonde streaks I now have red. So Im excited. I can't wait till Friday night.. CONCERT!!! And today because I am with my lover. OOOHHHH YEEEAA! (Kool-Aid man style) So yea. Im through. Later hoez!
-MuAh-
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[03 Jul 2004|08:04pm] |
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Ok. So... heres the thing. I'm not going to be all depressed. I have other things in my life not just Matt. I do love him. But I'm not going to dwell upon it. We're on a "break", which means there is a chance of us getting back together. Reguardless if we do or not it's cool. Things happen for a reason. We'll still be buddies. He's a great guy. Now don't get me wrong. It does hurt, it hurts like no other. I mean... I still love him. But I refuse to be all down. I'm not the person to let this type of stuff ruin my character, and I realize this now. I just wont date for a hell of a long time...unless its Matt.
As for tonight...me and Alex staying up all night eating....having funn. Because I WILL NOT be able to sleep. I kno that. Ahh...Tomarrows guna be cool. Fire Works with Marc Alex and the people over in the hood. OHH YEA! Da Hood. :)
-sigh- Alas...
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[03 Jul 2004|05:06pm] |
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FUCK
I hate how life works. I keep having those flashbacks. Ya kno? I wish there was a musical flashback for everything you go through. He's my best friend. The person I could turn to. I feel like my insides have been raped. This feeling... is why I didn't want to date. But I did, and that's what you get. Atleast I learned my lesson. Huh?
I'm not going to write in here for a while. I just dont want to / cant do it. Fuck everything right now man. I really am too torn for this shit, it ain't right. It isn't me. I'm going to straighten myself out inside, I already feel it. I just want him. But life suCks in that way. Ohh well... shit happens.
Ashlie
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| Me and Matt pics -o- Love! |
[29 Jun 2004|10:42pm] |
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Click to see fun doom!
( .Hoot!. )
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| I love my John John. :) |
[28 Jun 2004|11:36pm] |
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x spLeens x: hello
NBAJohn3: shit
NBAJohn3: u scared me
NBAJohn3: lo
NBAJohn3: whats up
x spLeens x: haha
x spLeens x: I come with gold!
x spLeens x: Nothing
x spLeens x: I live with my sister now
NBAJohn3: are u still going wit that guy though
NBAJohn3: why dont u live wit ur mom
x spLeens x: my mom isnt taking care of herself and its not fun because shes really mean all the time now
x spLeens x: Yea Im still with matt he lives out here
NBAJohn3: oh
NBAJohn3: thats cool
x spLeens x: yea
x spLeens x: You kno what I was thinking about like a week ago for no apparent reason?
NBAJohn3: what
NBAJohn3: what were u thinking about
x spLeens x: Like when we were little people
x spLeens x: When we use to make fun of Mike and shit lol
NBAJohn3: i know
NBAJohn3: that was fub
NBAJohn3: and i went out wit sarah
x spLeens x: haha
x spLeens x: old times
NBAJohn3: its true
x spLeens x: you went out with susie too!
x spLeens x: Yea now saras going to be a mom
x spLeens x: its a girl
NBAJohn3: yea i know
NBAJohn3: i heard
x spLeens x: Yupp
x spLeens x: But yea. Thats crazy tho. I miss those days
x spLeens x: I never realized it until I thought about it.
NBAJohn3: hey i went out wit u to
NBAJohn3: right
x spLeens x: haha
x spLeens x: when we were like what. 6?
NBAJohn3: yea
NBAJohn3: that was tight
x spLeens x: haha
x spLeens x: I wana be 6 again!
x spLeens x: lol
NBAJohn3: why
x spLeens x: Before now...I miss being little!
x spLeens x: I duno...
x spLeens x: I guess Im just thinking about it because now I dont really have a family
NBAJohn3: man dont say that
NBAJohn3: u make me sad
x spLeens x: aw! Im sry! I just think about it and its crazy
x spLeens x: It seems like yesturday
NBAJohn3: man if i could i would let u stay wit me
NBAJohn3: i love u like a sister
x spLeens x: thatd rawk
NBAJohn3: well u are my sister almost
x spLeens x: Yea
x spLeens x: Remember when we'd use to say we were bro and sis?
NBAJohn3: yea
x spLeens x: we were dorks
x spLeens x: haha
x spLeens x: So what are you up to
NBAJohn3: nothing really
NBAJohn3: i love u, u love me were a happy family, wit a great big hug and a kiss from me to u, wont u say u klove me tooo
x spLeens x: ...i love you too????
x spLeens x: I hate that song sooo bad! lol
NBAJohn3: barney is a dinosoaur froma re imagination and when he is tall hes what we call a dinosaur sensation
NBAJohn3: man do u know im a pimp
NBAJohn3: i have girls up the ass
NBAJohn3: shit
NBAJohn3: im a father alreadu
x spLeens x: haha
NBAJohn3: already
x spLeens x: you are?
x spLeens x: You lie
NBAJohn3: im serious
NBAJohn3: why would i lie
NBAJohn3: she had an abortion
x spLeens x: Im going to cut your balls off....are you serious?
x spLeens x: WHAT?!
NBAJohn3: so i yea
NBAJohn3: yea**
x spLeens x: COMDOMS!
x spLeens x: What dont you kids get?
x spLeens x: lol
NBAJohn3: no way
x spLeens x:
NBAJohn3: im kidding
NBAJohn3: lol
NBAJohn3: hahahah
x spLeens x: I hate you...we're over, :-(.
x spLeens x: -hmph-
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| People piss me off. |
[26 Jun 2004|08:39pm] |
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Thats all...
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| This entry is deticated to my Ashleys extreme beauty. :) |
[25 Jun 2004|02:02pm] |
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Look at this girl... man...I envy thee!
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[23 Jun 2004|10:40pm] |
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I feel so weird.
Aloneish.
Miss my childhood..family rawked then. I miss my dad.
I miss my friends.
Atleast I have some people out here, and my love.
But still....I feel the void that only my dad can fill. I guess I have to get used to it.
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| SLC Punk! A great movie indeed. |
[22 Jun 2004|03:32pm] |
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